I never planned to fall in love with you. Honestly, until recently I never really thought I had fallen for you. Sadly though, I did. Not as strongly as I have loved before, but none-the-less I fell. From the day we met I felt connected to you. I remember seeing you for the first time across the room. I would catch you staring at me, causing my face to burn red. Your eyes had such a warm depth to them. Once my eyes had connected it was always so hard to break free.
We began talking and instantly I liked you. We became friends very quickly and I loved how easy it was to be around you. I got the butterflies every time I saw you. A feeling I thought I'd never feel again. You made me laugh, and continuously flattered me. To be honest, you were quite the charmer. I had never met a guy like you. You were sweet, and had the most caring, loving heart. My falling for you began.
I will always remember your hugs. For they would bring never ending joy to me. There was something about them; a warm fuzzy feeling I got when you'd hug me. There was so much love within our embraces, I would never want to let go. I didn't think you did either. Our flirty banter always kept things interesting - and oh was I interested.
Now, this is where things get sad. I never once told you how I felt, until that one night I got ballsy and decided to be blunt. I should've never said anything to you, for maybe you would still talk to me if I hadn't. I wanted you to know how I felt. How I had liked you since the day we met. I never fully expressed how I felt however, for you were with someone and I didn't want to come in between that. I don't know why I'd tell you such a thing. Maybe with the hopes that you'd change your mind about her? I'm not quite sure. What I am sure about is that I was foolish.
The last day I saw you, I gave you the biggest hug ever. I'll never forget you coming to wait with me in line, or the kiss you gave me on my forehead before you left that made my heart skip a beat. The things you said to me as we sat on the steps together, or the look you gave me before you drove away in your car. I'll always remember that day as the best day I've spent with you yet.
You will always be an incredible guy to me. You have a kind heart, and a wonderful personality. The girl you're with now should always feel lucky to have you, because she truly is. I've seen you from a distance since that last day, and you seem happy. Though, I would be lying if I said it didn't hurt me to see you. Until next time, thank you for all that you gave me. You were an incredible friend that I happened to love at the wrong time.
I hope she treats you the way you deserve to be treated, and that you will be happy in life. Don't become a stranger because of the foolishness I did. That is something I'd have a hard time forgiving myself for.
