2012 resolution

This Christmas season I was in Canada visting Robbie, my boyfriend, from December 13th-January 10th. I had a blast! When it came around to new years eve, I counted down the seconds to the new year with him. After the clock hit twelve Everyone yelled "HAPPY NEW YEAR!" We kissed and then went around the room hugging everyone. It was a very happy and exciting time. Easily the best new years I've had.

After a couple of minutes, the excitment died down a bit and everyone was now asking "What's your resolution this year?" Now I've never thought much of these things. No one ever really keeps them for long no matter how badly they want to. So when the question came to me I said "I don't have one." I've only kept one resolution and that was for 2011. I told myself that I'd get myself to Canada at least once during that year and I was able to go twice! Lucky me :)

About three days before I had to come back home to Florida, I was starting to get sad. Robbie has always been amazing at making me smile, and be happy when I'm sad and not wanting to do anything but cry. He always know the right things to do, and to say. So, at the time I needed him most he came through, like always, and he gave me what I like to call "The Robbie Pep Talk!" (Yea, I just came up with that title. Awesome, right?)

Now, I love my cat! He is my baby and I absolutely hate being away from him. I know you're probably thinking "Well what does a cat have to do anything?" Just shoosh your brain a sec, you'll see.....

In this pep talk, he was telling me that I have my family and friends that are all missing me. My kitty who has been depressed without me, and who needs me to come home and cuddle with him ASAP. (See, told ya.) He said I have a camera to get, prints to sell (I'm going to be selling my photography soon), weddings to start taking pictures for. He was right.. There was so much for me to come home to.

The day that I left I had to get another famous "Robbie Pep Talk". I was packing and everything really started to hit me. I began to cry and Robbie was there to hold me close. He told me that I need to sit on the sunny side of things. Now my flight was at night. I honestly thought for a second that he forgot I was flying after dark, and was wanting me to sit on the sunny side of the plane. Silly, I know. I was tired though so sh!

I asked him what he meant, because as you can tell I was very confused. He told me that I needed to stay positive and happy. That I shouldn't leave with tears running down my face, but with a knowing smile that I'd be seeing him again soon. I had an extremely awesome first 10 days of the new year and I wanted to be able to come home from my trip and continue with that.

It's late - I know, but, I finally made my resolution. This year I want to start fresh. 2010 and 2011 were both great years for me, but, from 2010 I had a lot of emotional baggage that I carried into 2011 that weighed me down. I also piled on some new baggage within the year 2011. Thankfully, I've finally been able to shake it all off. I'm not sure how I did it, but I do know that I couldn't have done it without Robbie by my side.

So! To get to the point, my resolution this year is to sit on the sunny side of things. I'm staying true to myself, strong, positive, and will be embracing life with a smile on my face. I'm ready for all the challenges and amazing adventures 2012 has to offer me. I made a promise to Robbie before I left to do these things, which is why I found it suitable to go on and make them my resolution for this year. I am very confident, and positive as of right now. That alone makes me so happy.

I also have made goals for myself that I plan to write on my mirror so I 1. wont forget and 2. so I can check them off as I "score". The first goal I set for myself is to get my b-e-a-utiful Canon T2i. I love the camera I have now but if I'm being honest, I've definitely grown out of it. I use a Canon Powershot SD 1400 for everything that I do, yes including my photoshoots, and I am in major need of an upgrade! My goal is to get the T2i before April because I have a scheduled Wedding to take pictures of in the beginning of that month. The camera I have now DEFINITELY wont cut it for that.

My other goal is to get my drivers license. I've had my permit for 2 years now, (3 years in October if I, for some reason, STILL have it.) I'll be 18 in June and I'm craving freedom so bad. I want to be able to drive myself places and I can't if I still have my permit! So, when I'm 18, I plan on being able to afford insurance (which is why I still have a permit, damn insurance costs too much.) and drive away in the sunset!

That and be able to go to see Robbie in Canada at least once this year. And there you have it! I'm very happy with all this and it feels nice to get it all out even if no one reads it. I don't really know how many people or really who would read this, but whoever you are - thanks. Hopefully you didn't find me too boring :P

One last thing.... amazingly, this being only my second night home, I'm doing quite well with being away from Robbie. I miss him soo much, but again I made a promise! and will be keeping it<3

Goodnight all :)
<3 Coral